I’ve always felt like my biggest problem was a never ending chase.
A chase to more. A chase to being satisfied with myself.
It’s why I’m so vocal about my faith in God.
There’s just something about the presence of God that relaxes me. It’s the only thing that keeps my mind from running and wanting more.
It’s a never ending process.
A couple months ago, I realized that it would NEVER be fulfilled.
When I get to a million, I’ll want 2.
When I get to a certain point in my career, I’ll need to get further.
I even started to worry about my future wife. Whoever that girl is, will she be enough?
Will I want better? Will she be hot enough? Will she be smart enough?
I’m confident that I’m not the only one. There have to be others that struggle with the same thing.
This past week, I finally figured out the root of the problem.
I’m addicted to the praise of other people. I equate their praise with my self-worth.
Part of it is extreme competitiveness. I hate to lose. I hate when I’m not the best at everything (which I’m not even close).
But why do I still call my dad after a good round of golf? Because I don’t approve, until he approves it. My self-worth is determined on his praise. I don’t even play for fun. I play to be better than everyone in less than a couple years. If I don’t play well, it doesn’t justify even playing.
It’s not like my dad isn’t encouraging. He always is. I just have an addiction to praise.
The funny thing is, criticism doesn’t bother me in the least bit. If someone tells me I suck, it just motivates me more.
It just makes me want to tell them that I plan on dominating them in every aspect of life (that literally runs through my mind).
My Self-Worth Should be in God
As humans, we’re naturally apart from God. It’s why we seek outside approval. It’s why we’re always longing for more.
We’re orphans spiritually. God is our Father. It’s in our nature to feel like orphans until we’re placing our Identity in God.
That’s where I lack. I still place my self-worth and identity, in the praise of other people. It’s why I’m never satisfied.
My identity needs to be a child of God. Not as a businessman, speaker, or athlete.
If that’s not where it’s placed, my feeling of wanting MORE will never be fulfilled.
I still plan to work hard, make as much money as possible, and achieve everything I’ve set out to do.
But it doesn’t define who I am.
If you’re feeling like you’re missing something…there’s nothing this earth can offer.
Money, Recognition, Sex, Praise…..only provide temporary satisfaction.
Understanding that you’re a child of the Creator is the only thing that will fulfill you.
He says you’re…..
Justified, Chosen, Blameless, Redeemed, Confident, Bold, a Friend
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